After being in pain for so long and dealing with headaches for as long as I have I really should have known better than to walk into a neurologists office with any hope at all. But I was an idiot, and I had hope that the person I was seeing would be knowledgeable and maybe even caring enough to find something, at least the time of day, to listen to what I was dealing with and try to problem solve some way to fix that problem.
Instead I walked into what felt like the most rushed, hyper, and ADHD appointment I've ever had. I felt like I needed to ask the doctor to calm down and take a breath. I was lucky if I could finish my sentence before he tried asking another question which was basically just repeating what I had just answered and had given him documentation of and was right in front of him. I'm really not trying to be a pessimistic jerk and I'm not trying to give this doctor a hard time but I did not feel like I was given the time of day, let alone adequate care.
The decision, up my dosage of one of the meds that I'm already on. Yep, the one that makes me not feel hungry and that I've been on a higher dose of before. Well, we can see if it helps my daily headaches but he even admitted it wouldn't touch the pain I'm in now. So at the end of the appointment when I finally pleaded with him, telling him I've been in extreme pain for 3 weeks now and I can't function or handle this any longer he basically told me that he didn't have many options for me. If it had been earlier in the "headache cycle" he would have considered putting me in the hospital for a few days and putting me on high dose drugs but because it has been so long he things I'd just be miserable in there and that it isn't worth my time. And my other option was to call two other doctors and talk to them about Occipital Nerve Blocks. He looked at me, almost hopefully, that I would just call them and try it. So I said I would and left. He did prescribe me an antihistamine that he thought might help, but is doubtful about as well. UGH!
So I called the two doctors he recommended for the other procedure... one is booked until the end of May, the other until July. Awesome....NOT! So I'm still stuck in a crap ton of pain, and really didn't get any help. So I'm stuck. I'm going to call another neurologists office tomorrow and see if I can get in anytime soon or at least talk with one of their doctors and get suggests. If not I might just be stuck going to the ER to see what they can do. I can't keep living in this much pain. I keep coming home feeling like death and just wanted to crash and not have any human interaction. I've been snapping at my students and my coworkers and they don't deserve it. I just feel bad! I can't keep trying to live like this, it isn't really living.
My students are mainly testing tomorrow so my weekend will be full of grading, it should be a blast! I just want to feel better so that maybe, someday I can have a real life again.
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